A LITTLE PROBLEM

Recently there have been some major changes in my life. Right before Christmas I found out I have Polycystic Ovarian Disease or PCOS. It pretty much means that I can not have children without a lot of help from the doctor and modern medicine. Which when laid out like that doesn't sound too bad, but it also means that if by some rare chance I get pregnant, I most likely will miscarry. After being diagnosed with PCOS I have found that there are quite a few women that have this disease and may not even know it. PCOS may seem like a really small thing to some women but for those that have it, it is really discouraging. I had so many emotions upon finding out. I felt inadequate and broken. Like the one thing only women can do, I couldn't. I felt little and insignificant. I was also really mad. Mad at myself, mad at God for giving me this trial and sadly, mad at anyone that has ever had a child. I went through a short phase of thinking that somehow I was a better person to have a child than say, a teen mom. But I quickly remembered that a child is a gift no matter who they go to, and no matter how or when they come. My gift will come when God sees fit. Until then I want to educate and help all those that have PCOS. I want to inform women that this is a real thing, that its hard, but there is an answer. And having PCOS does not make you any less of a woman. But learning about it can help either yourself or someone you may know. I am blessed however that there is an option to get pregnant. I am also blessed that I have a person in my life that has PCOS and has been successful in having children twice. It's just good to know that God never leaves you alone. That He will always put someone in your path to help you along. I hope that I can help someone that is struggling with this so that I can provide comfort and help.